“We will be known forever by the tracks we leave.” -Dakota proverb


Fake News and True Love

Installation view of Fake News and True Love: Fourteen Stories By Robert Baines at the Museum of Arts and Design, New York (October 16, 2018–March 3, 2019).Photo by Jenna Bascom; courtesy the Museum of Arts and Design


Morning Song

Sylvia Plath, 1932 - 1963 Love set you going like a fat gold watch. The midwife slapped your footsoles, and your bald cry Took its place among the elements. Our voices echo, magnifying your arrival. New statue. In a drafty museum, your nakedness Shadows our safety. We stand round blankly as walls. I’m no more your mother Than the cloud that distills a mirror to reflect its own slow Effacement at the wind’s hand. All night your moth-breath Flickers among the flat pink roses. I wake to listen: A far sea moves in my ear. One cry, and I stumble from bed, cow-heavy and floral In my Victorian nightgown. Your mouth opens clean as a cat’s. The window square Whitens and swallows its dull stars. And now you try Your handful of notes; The clear vowels rise like balloons.


love beating fear

"To convene in a Jewish house of worship has frequently been a radical act, even for a secular event like this. We could not enjoy this beautiful night in this space without acknowledging the terrible, targeted attacks around the country like the recent one at the Tree of Life Synagogue in Pittsburgh. These are hate crimes, plain and simple, and we will continue to call them what they are. Before we begin our show, we'd like to share this remembrance of Dr. Jerry Rabinowitz, one of those killed at Tree of Life on Saturday, from one of his former patients, Michael Kerr:

In the old days, for HIV patients in Pittsburgh, he was to one to go to. Basically before there was effective treatment for fighting HIV itself, he was known in the community for keeping us alive the longest. He often held our hands (without rubber gloves) and always always hugged us as we left his office.

I keep coming back to this story about Dr. Rabinowitz because it's about love beating fear. He often held our hands without rubber gloves. That's what I'm trying to channel. I'm trying to figure out the love-based response to my fears about the outcome of these midterm elections, my fears that this administration has stoked so much hatred we'll never be able to recover as a nation, my fears for the safety of people I care about. In this moment, in my life, which acts are the equivalent of holding hands without rubber gloves?  writer Ann Friedman

I'm reading this weekend
The neuroscience of hate speech. Voting is a right, but most states don't protect it. The stories of school-shooting survivorsHousing can't be affordable and a great investment. Where the "gig economy" is just the economy. How Mark Zuckerberg became too big to fail. The case for lurkingThe wrong kind of trans visibility. How the KKK used conspiracy theories. The myth of whiteness in classical sculpture. Rest in power, Ntozake Shange. Jessica Hopper talks to Robyn about depression and therapy and growing up. When doctors don't listen to women. Sniffing around with a super-smeller. Is CBD just snake oil? And we talk about a lot of great new books on this week's episode of CYG.


i told you (and it's still a shock)

well, its days away... WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
gulp... it became two books... TWINS ??????

Mental Midgets | Musqonocihte

ISBN:  9781729466704
it's short, and you can afford it



smarter (hiatus)

Boom is finishing up a few writing projects (like a new chapbook which will be cheap or free if you email me) and Boom will be back blogging soon.

Tyrants hate critics. Some crooks hack people to death. There will be blood.


think hard(er)

“That, in my opinion, was the most diabolical aspect of those old-time big brains: They would tell their owners, in effect, ‘Here is a crazy thing we could actually do, probably, but we would never do it, of course. It’s just fun to think about.’ And then, as though in trances, the people would really do it–have slaves fight each other to death in the Colosseum, or burn people alive in the public square for holding opinions which were locally unpopular, or build factories whose only purpose was to kill people in industrial quantities, or to blow up whole cities, and on and on.”
― Kurt Vonnegut, Gal├ípagos



From the Bolsheviks, to Hitler and the Third Reich, to Mao Zedong, to most tin-pot dictators across the Middle East and Africa, there has ALWAYS been an organized group of money men and think tanks fueling the careers of the worst politicians and military juntas of the epoch. 

not so good

The U.S. Mega Millions lottery jackpot swelled to a record US$1.6 billion after the 25 drawings held since the end of July – including the latest on Oct. 19 – failed to yield a winner.
That ties it for the largest lottery grand prize the world has ever seen.
The jackpot for the rival Powerball game also reached $1.6 billion in 2016.
The odds of winning are very small, or about 1 in 303 million. You are about 400 times more likely to be hit by lightning. If every adult in the U.S. purchased just one ticket, each with a different number, there would still be a good chance – about 7 percent – that no winner emerges at a given drawing and the pot would grow even larger.
But once a winner is declared, a more interesting question arises: What happens to all that money and the lucky ticket holder? As research by myself and others shows, it’s often not what you’d expect.
The jackpot for Mega Millions tied for the largest lottery prize on record. Reuters/Brendan McDermid

Economists Guido Imbens and Bruce Sacerdote and statistician Donald Rubin showed in a 2001 paper that people tend to spend unexpected windfalls. Looking at lottery winners approximately 10 years after winning showed they saved just 16 cents of every dollar won.

And other studies have found that winning the lottery generally didn’t help financially distressed people escape their troubles and instead only postponed the inevitable bankruptcy. One found that a third of lottery winners go bankrupt.

Huntington Hartford inherited millions. He died with little to show for it. Diane Hartford/Wikimedia Commons, CC BY

Riches to rags

And that’s basically what a man named Huntington Hartford did.
Hartford, who lived from 1911 to 2008, was the heir to the Great Atlantic & Pacific Tea Company fortune. This company, which started just before the Civil War, is better known as the A&P supermarket chain. A&P was the first U.S. coast-to-coast food store, and from World War I to the 1960s was what Walmart is for today’s American shoppers.
Hartford inherited approximately $90 million when he was 12. Adjusting for inflation means he was given over $1.3 billion as a child, after taxes. Yet Huntington declared bankruptcy in New York in 1992, approximately 70 years after being handed one of the largest fortunes in the world.
Hartford had the reverse Midas touch. He lost millions buying real estate, creating an art museum and sponsoring theaters and shows. He combined poor business skills with an exceptionally lavish lifestyle. After declaring bankruptcy, he lived as a recluse with a daughter in the Bahamas until he died.

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"Best to stay away from religion and go for the dreaming - the most powerful religion of them all".
Paul Cox

"Those who lose their Dreaming are truly lost "
Indigenous Australian proverb

“It’s time to wake up and realize whether you’re the dreamer or the dreamed.” (John Armitage ‘Hari Das’ – Multidimensional Healer)